I wish I was sitting in a space like in the photo above. Being out under the moonlight would be wonderful, except that it is 17 degrees outside right now. There is no place for me to do any ritual. But I am here…with you while you are reading this.
This is all so new to me. Still somewhat overwhelming as I fight the thoughts that hold me back. Remembering that there is no right or wrong way to embrace my own personal spirituality is the struggle sometimes. So I am here…doing what I enjoy…writing.
I have read that during this time of the Snow Moon, I should write down my intentions. What do I want to manifest? What do I want to release? What do I want to bring into my life? These are difficult questions to answer for me as I have lived the past 35 years taking care of others and meeting their needs while setting my own wants and needs aside. I can barely even tell my kids what I would like as a birthday or Christmas gift. What do I want? I want them to be happy. But I deserve to be happy too, right?
While reading today, or listening to an audiobook, or was it a TikTok video? Yeah…it was a TikTok video, the creator spoke of removing the barriers that I have that prevent me from experiencing childlike joy. What a statement. How long has it been since I experienced true joy? Like just live and experience something without worry and just take it all in…enjoy it to the fullest. It has been a very long time my friends.
But this is a start. I began writing in a diary when I was about 14 years old. I would write almost daily. Thoughts, hopes, fears, poems, whatever came to mind. I remember when that practice stopped. I gave up myself for someone else. I can see the moment that my life trajectory changed. Kinda mind blowing. Yet here I am. Putting my intentions out into the universe.
With a Snow Moon playlist going in the background and the power of the moon around us, and the Creator by my side, I intend to get back to the things I love. Journaling, serving, being an encouraging human being. And my desire is to be more in tune with nature. As the Imbolc season began, so did the seedlings for what is to become my garden this spring. I look forward to taking care of it so that it can nourish and take care of me. My friend called it Brigid’s Bounty, for the goddess Brigid.
Releasing negativity and things that no longer serve me are also things that are done during the full moon. Let me tell you, the past several years have been full of trials and tribulations, stress and chaos, anxiety and fear. My attitude certainly did change. My intention is to look at things more positively again. Not that every situation is a positive one…I know. But I don’t want to be so fearful. I want to release the burden of fear. I want to release this anxiety. Not every situation, not every day, is going to be perfect. My intension is to look at things in a more positive manner, or at least try.
I want to bring in good habits that help me take better care of myself and release the bad habit of neglecting myself and my health. I want to find my spiritual path. Any real sort of spirituality has been missing in my life for almost 10 years now. May this new journey that started with the new moon earlier this month, introduced me to Imbolc, and has now landed me here during the full Snow Moon, help me move forward…teach me new lessons…help me heal… and so much more.
Blessed be.
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