Tag: spring

Man. January was the longest year I have had in a very long time. WTF. I have been exhausted. Thankfully I have a dear friend to connect with and I even have a mutual on TikTok whose videos I watch and connect with. She seems super nice. I’d like to chat with her, but it seems strange to just message a total stranger. LOL

Lately, my focus has been off terribly. We just entered Imbolc season and I feel like I was just sort of going through the motions. I did a couple of things that I had planned out with my friend, but I’m a solo practitioner and my husband isn’t really aware or concerned with it. Not that I hide it, but it’s just me. It is hard to know exactly what I should be doing. On the other hand, there isn’t anything that “should” be done or “has to” be done. I need to follow my intuition more. That’s where the focus has been off.

With the crazy things that have been happening in our world, the TikTok sale, life…I was running low on motivation. News made me sad, angry, anxious. The new social platform now makes me kinda nervous. Do I want to post videos there anymore? Not that I did much to begin with, but I was considering it. And work just never stops! Shit…I am totally whining. Venting? I have to get stuff off my chest somehow, right? Anyway…

Back to Imbolc. This is the time between the winter solstice and the vernal equinox aka Spring. It is a time we really start to see our days getting longer. I know I have and I love it! The birds are singing up a storm these days. The land is waking up. Those birds will be making nests before we know it. It is time to start planning the garden. The new year is approaching fast and I am hoping this year will provide a more abundant garden, more joy, and more motivation on my part. Connecting to nature is one thing I would like to do. Even if it is just being outside in my yard and enjoying the fresh air. When I was a kid, I was outside ALL.THE.TIME.

Another thing that I’ve been thinking about a lot is my oracle cards. I have four beautiful decks and I enjoy using them as tool to help understand where some work could be done in my life. But I want to share this with others as well. At heart, I am a counselor. Always have been. I am empath, understanding, encouraging and tend to see the good in everything. I even have the “Elemental Empath” oracle deck by Miyuki Rose. Well, I used to be all of those things. It’s been rough over the past few years, you know? This part of my life has been missing it seems. I want it back. These cards can also be used for shadow work. And if it helps me, it can help someone else too.

My dilemma is finding a good time to make videos and/or audio recordings and what platform to post them on. As usual, I start comparing myself to others and the ways that they’re doing it. I need to sit and think about it and decide what feels best for me.

One of the cards I pulled a couple of days ago was the “Beginnings” card from the Queen of the Moon Oracle deck (by Stacey Demarco). It says, “You are offered a fresh start; your journey is beginning. Take the first steps toward something new. It is time to place emphasis on your health and well-being.” This resonates. We are walking toward a new year…a new journey. Being outside with my garden will certainly do good things for my health and well-being. Encouraging others will also help in those areas as well.

Time to put the focus on myself. This is not to say that I would ignore others. But as I have always been told, you can’t take care of others if you’re not taking care of yourself.

It’s time.

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